Finally home for the holidays

Finally, i'm home for the holidays!

Well, it's really a big deal...
i haven't been home for the season for the last 2 years.


hmmm... what was i doing the last 2 years?

i was:

1. silly working (christmas is a commercialized holiday in TH. so, go figure!

2. stupidly drunk (literally and figuratively)

wesley and tita ninang

madonna and child? not!

this is me and wesley, my nephew. we were goofing around and my cousin *as usual* took photo of us. i kinda played with the photo and voila! ;)

Break Muna!

If you opened this, FILL IT
OUT! Learn
50 things about your friends, and let
them learn 50
things about you! (NOTE: I opened it
and I had to
fill it out...rules are rules)

1. How tall are you barefoot?
nearly 5 feet tall... neeeeaarrrllyyyyy *haaayyy*

2. Have you ever smoked?
i still do. errmm... i am now.

3. Do you own a gun?
mehhh, im so not into guns ;)

4. Who's your best friend?
Belyas!!!

5. Do you get nervous before "meeting
the parents"?
nope why should i?

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
i eat them sometimes for lunch, which i eat around 3-4pm in front of this very same laptop. Yeaaahhh!! you got that right. Lunch not merienda. killer work huhuhu but dont get me wrong i am enjoying ;)

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
fa la la la la...la la la *singing on top of lungs*


8. What do you prefer to drink in the
morning?
you've got a coffee adik here

9. Can you do push ups?
noooooooooooo

10. Is your bathroom clean?
i hope so. i havent gone to the loo since i got home.

11. What's your favorite piece of
jewelry?
the pearls my gramma gave me

12. Do you like painkillers?
i hate popping pills but i do love getting drunk

13. What is your secret weapon to lure
in the
opposite sex?
dont have any. whachasee is whachaget

14. Do you own a knife?
nope i dont

15. Do you have A.D.D.?
NOOOOO!!!! i dont have!

16. Middle Name?
Fontanilla

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact
moment?
1 i havent done my christmas shopping and i dont really have time to do it
2 i want to go to boracay, i really do!
3 i neeeeeeeeeed to have fun

18. Name the last 3 things you have
bought:
recently? Marks&Spencer chocolates for Jem, fooooood, and fooooood

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:
coffee, coffee, coffee

20. What time did you wake up today?
8.30am

22. Current worry?
i want to launch all campaigns before christmas... otherwise they'll be useless

23. Current hate?
getting a ride home! traffic sucks!! so this is how christmas is in the PH. stupid me i forgot :P

24. Favorite place to be?
the beach

25. Least favorite place to be?
hospital <---- yeahhh!! even just visiting.

26. Where would you like to go?
to the beach

27. Do you own slippers?
durrrrrr

28. What shirt are you wearing?
its called a tanktop duh!

29. Do you burn or tan?
i burn... i love the sun. call me weird but i love being under the sun

30. Favorite color(s)?
pink and yellow

31. Would you be a pirate?
no i dont even know how to swim!

32. Last time you had an alcoholic
drink?
last week

33. What songs do you sing in the
shower?
depende

34. What did you fear was going to get
you at night as a child?
the boogey man

35. What's in your pockets right now?
lighter

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
gifts from a friend from TH :) sooooo sweet i am absofrigginmissin them sooooooo much!

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
i dont remember... oh wait, the pink ruffly one... wala na ung mga pillow cases and bedsheet but i still have the small pillow case for the small unan that i use until now. uyyyy, i bring that every country i go or long drives.

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
ermmm... dunno

40. How many TVs do you have in your
house?
1

41. Who is your loudest friend?
everyone

42. Who is your most silent friend?
no one hahaha

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
i dunno

44. Do you wish on shooting stars?
i used to

45. What is your favorite book?
dami sobra

46. What is your favorite candy?
peppermints

47. What song do/did you want played
at your
wedding?
i dunno

48. What song do you want played at
your funeral?
ewan ko

49. What were you doing 12 AM last
night?
prolly reading

50. What was the First thing you
thought of when
you woke up?
what time is it?

Post this as "50 things about me"

On projects and campaign launches

I am supposed to be sick today... or at least on sick leave.

Aren't sick leaves supposed to be, person stays in bed all day? Or to be more specific, person sleeps, watches tv, eats tasteless food, sips fresh juices, sleeps , watches tv all day?

But because of a lot of things going on, i resolved to working from home just for today. So instead, i set up laptop on dining table, set up house phone near dining table, eat infront of laptop, drink coffee infront of laptop, listen to tv or glance once in a while, again tap-tap-tap on keyboard, stand up and look for better signal to answer mobile phone calls, tap-tap-tap again on keyboard....... hahaha don't you find this hilarious?

Work from home. Hmm... someone told me that it's the same as being in the office. The only difference is that you can work naked. Well, erm, true. I have been wearing this skimpy towel since i woke up and my clock reads 7:22pm. My plan actually is to take a bath before checking my mails but then silly me. Now, look at what I have gotten myself into.

I'm shutting up now. I think I have had too much caffeine again... but before that. I want you guys to check out this photo.

This actually made my day bright ;) Let me post this for the meantime until i find time to play with it soon. Yeaboi!!!

I dunno them except the dude wearing black on the left. Hehehe

Ok, bath time keekai!

Satisfaction

I know i have posted the video of this somewhere... but really, i feel like singing this now. Waaahhh, it's stuck in my mind. I can't get no satisfaction, I can't get no satisfaction. 'Cause I try and I try and I try and I try. I can't get no, I can't get no. When I'm drivin' in my car and that man comes on the radio and he's tellin' me more and more about some useless information supposed to fire my imagination. I can't get no, oh no no no. Hey hey hey, that's what I say. I can't get no satisfaction, I can't get no satisfaction. 'Cause I try and I try and I try and I try. I can't get no, I can't get no. When I'm watchin' my TV and that man comes on to tell me how white my shirts can be. Well he can't be a man 'cause he doesn't smoke the same cigarrettes as me. I can't get no, oh no no no. Hey hey hey, that's what I say. I can't get no satisfaction, I can't get no girl with action. 'Cause I try and I try and I try and I try. I can't get no, I can't get no. When I'm ridin' round the world and I'm doin' this and I'm signing that and I'm tryin' to make some girl who tells me baby better come back later next week 'cause you see I'm on losing streak. I can't get no, oh no no no. Hey hey hey, that's what I say. I can't get no, I can't get no, I can't get no satisfaction, no satisfaction, no satisfaction, no satisfaction.

Bailleeeeeyyyyysss

Running from meeting to another meeting today... we still managed to bust Baileys booth at GB3. Yayyyy!! Anything for a free shot!

*Imagine, 6 meetings for today only starting at 9am plus on top it all 3 projects to launch next week. Killer ain't it?*

Meeeeehhhhnnn, i'm tired :(

Domino-effect and Busted

Just a thought: If ever you will be launching a multi-million budget, please, please, please don't ever call it Project Domino or Project Bus. Urggghhh!

Domino doesn't stand for "dominate". It means otherwise. Read: DOMINO-EFFECT
Bus doesn't mean anything except BUSTED.

I just had the longest working days of my life! Well, next to the Vista Pitch... *remembering late hour meetings, need to be in the office early morning internals, never ending presentations, more meetings, work-work-work*

Look i don't even have the energy to finish this entry. Meeehhhhnnn!!!

Looooong weekend ahead

Funny. While having lunch with my boss, he asked me what i have planned out for this extra strong weekend. Told him i was actually planning to finally do my beach trip... ALONE if it weren't for this typhoon.

He said, what's the dilly with that?? Why not go with your girlfriends of something.
I told him, noooo, i want to go alone... i haven't gone to the beach alone.
He said, what about company... ur not gonna read a book there the whole time?
I said, maybe i'll meet some people there... or something. Anyway, i want to be alone with my thoughts.
He said, YOU ARE A COMPLICATED WOMAN!

See, even my boss thinks so, too. My boss, of all people. lol

So what if i am?? >:)


Anyway, this storm is a bummer... i would throw a bitch fit if it wouldn't actually hit Manila. Why wouldn't i? Opportunity cost: Solo beach trip.

Ok nuff moping about that. I honestly do not have a long weekend plan right now. *sob* plus i have a campaign coming up on 10th December and all the creative materials are still... errrmmmm... floating? hehe TH team needs all those ASAP :( So i guess i cannot not afford to go OL :P

So guys, would love to hear ur long weekend plans :) and really hope it would be a blast!

Ciao XD

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Fix me

See... i'm broken.

I am not as callous as you thought I am.

I do have a heart... I do.

Can somebody fix me? Now, please, thanks.

Excerpts from GGM's Memories of My Melancholy Whores

I have been trying to finish this book since... ermmm prolly last month! But wasn't able to really find the time until today... well almost (hey i only got 15 more pages to go. That's not a lot!). As I immerse myself to every page, I kept on thinking of this one person (yes, if you are reading, that's you... if you ever live to 90) whom I think would end up like the unnamed hero-persona of the novel. Thought it was pretty boring since page1 and for the first time I thought I'm disappointed with GGM... but this portion, his conversation with Casilda Armenta, whom didn't appear until this page, totally blew my mind :)

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Excerpts from Gabriel Garcia Marquez's Memories of My Melancholy Whores (p.99-100)

"Do whatever you want, but don't lose that child," she said. "There's no greater misfortune than dying alone."



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.... Look at where our honeymoon has ended up, she mocked. But then she was serious: Today I look back, I see the line of thousands of men who passed through my beds, and I'd give my soul to have stayed with even the worst of them. Thank God I found my Chinaman in time. It's like being married to your little finger, but he's all mine.

She looked into my eyes, gauged my reaction to what she had just told me, and said: So you go and find that poor creature right now even if what your jealousy tells you is true, no matter what, nobody can take away the dances you've already had. But one thing, no grandfather's romanticism. Wake her, fuck her brains out with that burro's cock the devil gave you as a reward for cowardice and stinginess. I'm serious, she concluded, speaking from the heart: Don't let yourself die without knowing the wonder of fucking with love.

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Oh, the irony and humour. haha :P

*hissssss* I'm brewing my yuletide venom....

I sooo heart family reunions!

I sooo heart family reunions! I really do :) I love catching up with family and hearing how they have been. I love reminiscing the funniest things that had happened in the past even waaaay, way before I was born. I love hearing legends and epics, adventures and misadventures of everybody as well as sharing mine, too. I love sharing meals with them-- stuffing ourselves with so much food enough to last for the entire week! I am soooo pigged-out I can't even think of eating for the entire day today (sheesh, there goes my nth attemp to go on diet). I have been consistently gaining a lotta weight since I got back from Thailand and my tummy looks disgusting! Flabs everywhere... YUCK! Chinkey you're such a piggy!! Oink!

This weekend was such a blast! Didn't went anywhere last Friday night. I just had dinner with the dudes (while listening to a sucky band) and then came down with a splitting headache from nowhere (prolly from the sucky band haha). I had to cancel a night-out with the other dudes (sorry, guys... I just had to). By the time I got home I was so friggin tired I went straight to bed and had fallen asleep instantly. That's kinda good because I was advised that we are leaving at 9am the following day.

I woke up so early (around 7am) on a Saturday morning. Ghahh, I hate waking up early on a weekend but, hell, they (family) is dead-serious when they said they will leave me behind if I came late. Man, that was nasty :( So, yeah, I got to my dad's house on time and we drove off to pick up Uncle Ben, who just got back from Chicago last week. This trip was actually planned out especially for him.

Meeting place is at my grandparent's house. J has actually planned on bringing his Honda just for experience; plus we also thought that there will be a lot of oldies who will be joining the trip as well. We don't wanna get cramped at the back seat of whichever car we are bunking into. Hello, leg room! Getting stuck in a 3-hour drive cramped at the back would be really awful we'll not at least to me. My legs are short anyway. Nonetheless, we found out that it will just be only a few of us joining the trip. So we convoyed with just the *new* CRV (whattafab!) and the Prado. Guess what, I was voted to seat at the back because as I predicted they would say I would fit in there... my legs are short anyway! Meeeh!!

So cramped at the backseat, we traveled for a couple of hours and pit stopped at Liliw, Laguna to buy some shoes! Maaaaaaaan, i so adore the shoes there and the bags, too. They sell it really really cheap! We didn't have much time so I wasn't able to really chose which I like :( I only had time to buy one. Awwwww... well at least Tita bought it for me. Neat-o!

We had lunch at this nice resto somewhere along the way to Caliraya. The resto is supposedly a place overlooking Laguna de Bay but the landscaping was so bad the trees blocked the view. Food was not so great but didn't like the calamares and gindara :( but i liked the kare-kare (but my brother's kare-kare is the best).

It didn't take a long time from the resto to the resort by the lagoon. The 3-hour drive was worth it! The view there is fantastic. The place is really peaceful and relaxing. Although the facilities are very spartan (just the pool and some boats), I really liked the place and would want to go back there to spend an entire night.

I invited my dad to go with me to the dock and sat there with my feet playing with the icy cold waters. It was sunset that time but too bad the weather was cloudy so I didn't see my sun :( otherwise everything is purrrrrfect! Calm lagoon, cold water on my feet, peace and quiet. It was really sad that we didn't stay there longer :( Too bad i wasn't able to bring my camera but thankfully my cousin never leaves home with out. So here are some photos.

We got home quite late as the traffic was awful but it was a great trip. I'm so glad I came.

The following day is another family get-together. It was some sort of a welcome home party for both Uncle Ben and Uncle Jr, who came from San Diego. We came late, actually, as I couldn't bring myself away from my beloved bed. So with much coercing from my brothers, I quickly showered and dressed. We went first to my sister-in-law's grandma's birthday luncheon and ate really fast, shared small talks, and went to my grandparent's house.

Food was prepared by Aunt Ising, who is famous for her dinuguan and Filipino dessert. Yuuuuummmm! Again, we pigged out and spent the entire afternoon trying to get 100 with the magic sing. Insentive: 100 USD (Of course, that was never done no matter how "great" they can sing :P Bleh, i can still here Beach Boy's Kokomo ringing in my head. Some of the photos here.

Read byotch

Imitation is the greatest form of flattery... NOT!

Flava suckers should be burned. Get your own ystilo, will ya?

Bad Girls Do Cry

I'd love you forever to the moon and the stars...

if you will give me a copy of this. Would really wanna take a peek :P

You are welcome to hop in as well.

Some thoughts i can't reconcile

Some sporadic and senseless thought outbursts i can't quite reconcile:-

they call it daydreaming because it happens during the day... duh

not making sense these days...
is it me; or it's just the time of the year;
or entirely the cycle of my eventful life?
oh right, this is the part where i make stupid decision
*sob* this is getting old, man, really getting old

little kitty lost, little kitty found,
perhaps the little kitty was not meant to be found

Just me and my thoughts of the stupid cycle of my life.

Bleh, i'm tired of it... really.

Good morning, Pranburi!
Candid shots by Jay

Yeah, Ferdi, don't worry :)

I'm so used to flying and i totally love flying alone.

I'm a big girl so don't fret! :P

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Currently fighting off a fever, what do you know, I'm still blogging! Adik noh? Nah, not really. I just had to get this off my sytem and to warn my lovely-lovely friends (duh?) that I will flying tomorrow to Bangkok and will be back in a week or so.

Yey!!! Her Keekainess back to Bangkok... flashbacks... tons and tons of flashbacks of how i lived 2 years of my eventful life there. Here's one memory:

Went out to have a birthday dinner with some Filipino friends. After that, we went to The Landmark on the request of the celebrant (whom i honestly don't remember the name!). I wore this really nice 3-inches wedged slip-ons pairs... perfect to match my top. Halfway dancing there, strap snapped. So i took off the shoes and danced barefeet... who cares? After the party, I was actually planning to just hop on a taxi and go straight home. Guess what? We have to go with them to Thong Lor to grab something to eat before getting home. You know me... it's so difficult to say "no". So i asked them to wait at the lobby, grabbed Adrian to the nearest midnight bazaar, and i literally walked barefeet along Soi Nana. To my luck, i had to cross the street for the shoe section. So you can imagine how disgusting my feet was that time!

So anyway, here is my itinerary:

Flying out Wednesday morning, meet New Media and Admax peeps (hey hey hey, will see my ex-crush Michael again! Coolio!) in the afternoon, and probably rest in the evening.
Leave early on Thursday and hit the beach until Saturday (wooohoooo!!)
Probably go shopping for Chinkeekai on Sunday and meet some friends at night.
All day Monday and Tues will be work, work, work and at night will be party, party, party!!!

I definitely ain't missing Santika and RCA and the Chinese restaurant along Lang Suan near my old apartment (i sooo love their tom yum).

So you guys, let's hang even for a short while ayt? Ciao!

oh, hey wait, here's me this afternoon. Taken by my cuzn's new Canon S3is. More photos of my afternoon here (that's before I met up with my boss).

My cousin... dreaming of being a paparazzi... practicing on me! SWEET!!!


Check out Wesley's birthday bash.

Hey, if you think we were safe... i believe you and would want to do it again ;)

What a week it was and what a way to end it. Eventful :)

Friday

The crazy things i did just to catch my sunset. First, after cab's cue that she's done with her meeting, i hurriedly packed my friggin heavy laptop, dashed to the lift, hoping i could immediately flag down a taxi. Guess not... twas Makati Friday! How stupid of me not to realize earlier. Instead, i waited for an hour in front of GT before i have given up hope. I jumped to a jampacked bus going to Buendia and immediately recognizing i have committed a suicide!

What is it about people riding those public buses? Seems like they are enjoying rubbing their bodies with eachother amidst the nauseating odor of those pine tree air polluter. It has been really a long while since i last took the bus and i felt like i was about to get sick. Okay, that i could still withstand but what i can't are the stares and my new white shoes being trampled by almost half of the passengers! Waaaahhhhh.... they ruined my shoes and I was friggin late for my sunset! Well, *shrug*.... maybe i'll catch it some other time :(

Nonetheless, i spent the best friday night ever with my two bestest girl friends- Ate Bhel and Jhan! I am so glad they have gotten along pretty fine... well, ganging up on me is their point of comparison. It isn't my fault that you, girls, simply love me (and i love you more! mwah!). Here are photos we took at Baywalk.



Aw, my poor trampled shoe watching what was left of the sunset.

Saturday

Woke up really early only to realize that I was really tired and crabby. Crap! I need to buy some stuff for my friends' wedding. So, coercing my sister-in-law to drive me to SM and have a look-see of some stuff i might be using later that day, we drove off... and got home disappointed. hehe Well, i wasn't able to buy a new pair of pants which i would partner with my violet tanktop so nevermind. I wasn't gonna change clothes na! Screw the emceeing attire... im wearing this gown :P

Wedding was really nice. Did you know that I almost cried upon seeing my friend walk the aisle (then realizing it would ruin my eye makeup)... *sniffles* awwww finally they are tying the knot! It's really about time that they do. Ten years of knowing eachother and a three-year old kid. What more can be done?

Here are some photos from the wedding... too bad mum took only a few shots. My bad i was really busy but it was a big pleasure to emcee the event :) Moreso, even great to be with the gang again. Gawd, it has been ages! What are they now... almost all are married. hehehe

After the party, I went straight to gate crash a party with cabs :P hehehe Wow, small world... what do you know i knew some people there too! Well, it wasn't really a great party (plus i gate crashed) but my stale terrible coffee tasted nice when me and cabs talked about a lotta unimaginable stuff. :) Really nice to know you sis!

Now it's Sunday

Again i woke up early... had to send cabs home and had to think of several kids' activities for Wesley's 3rd birthday bash.

But before anything else, let me try and book my flight back to Bangkok on Wednesday night. Yes, you heard me right... I'm flying out :) so watch out Siam for your Keekainess!

Sporadic incoherent thought: No, i did not!

You went back here because you think you are matured enough to be back here. You hoe, i thought you're done with that?
Here we go... No, chnx, you've dug yet again another deepshit.

Enough already.

Free me from this mess and i will fly away.

My id hasn't been of much use to me. Boooo! Mellowing down totally sucks!

Bleh, i just miss being bored... and getting really, really, really mao.

Joining the Bandwagon: Tagged by my monstrously evolving Bangkok Bud A

Joining the Bandwagon: Tagged by my monstrously evolving Bangkok Bud A


1. How often do you blog? when i find the time or when i really have to

2. Online Alias: keekai, which is actually my real name

3. Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew? yes

4. What do you do most often when you are bored? i miss being bored!

5. When bathing, which do you wash first? my hair

6. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? yeppers dont ask why

7. What color looks best on you? any except gray, brown and blue... they are boring colors to me!

8. What’s your favorite alcoholic drink? anything that doesn't move

9. Do you believe in heaven and hell as a real place that each of us will go to after death? i really dunno... to me its making the most out of my life and doing the things i can and want to do. afterall, you only have one.

10. Do you find that you have more online friends than offline friends? all my offline friends are as well my online friends

11. What was your favorite subject in school? i hate math. period.

12. Are you a perfectionist? nah

13. Do you spend more than you can afford? let's not talk about finances... i'm so bad at budgeting

14. Is it better to have loved and lost than never to have loved before? duh? i think its too early to think of an answer for this. ask me again when i'm loaded with alcohol. :P

15. Do you consider yourself creative? yeah and all sorts of unimaginable way

16. Do you give yourself the credit you deserve? yes

17. Do you donate time or money to charities? uhuh

18. Have you recently done something yourself that you’ve criticized others for doing? no i believe there are always reasons behind everything

19. What’s on your mind right now? my body aches... damn heavy laptop!

20. Say one nice thing about the person who tagged you and the five people that you are going to tag:

A - my best bud! my brother from another mother. we are definitely tight... tighter than brad pitt's butt. we ruled Bangkok for a good couple of years (that's on and off)... the keeper of my Bangkok at night stories hehehe! he is somebody whom i can really rely on and trust. :) *pssst, mama noodles ko ha!*


i'm tagging: everyone... sorry, i don't wanna bust a bulb thinking :P

Didn't turned out the way I have expected *sob*...

I just realized that shower parties are also a friendship test. Nuff said.

Concert for a Cause. JR, our research specialist at McCann will undergo a kidney transplant and we are helping her raise fund for this.

Help and have fun with your friends as well. Tickets are available through me at PhP 200 and at 500 per night.

PhP 200 entitles you to 2 reg drinks, 500 to 2 cocktail drinks or convertible to 4 beers or 2 beers and 2 reg drinks.

Its 6pm onwards. GT Tower, 12th floor, Oct 6 and Oct 13.

October 6: Imago, Callalily, 6th Cycle Mind, Flower Pot, Fuse, Join the Club, etc.

October 13: Sandwich, Spongecola, Protein Shake, Cajones, Cueshe, Kjwan with Mark Abaya, Kamikazee, etc.

I MISS...

look at what i have become

Ages ago, when i was smaller, i totally aspired to become either a ballerina (cuz i have been taking ballet classes back then) or a ghostbuster (which i then thought is a real-life work). Then i dreamt on becoming a psychologist and an owner-therapist for drug dependents. I actually planned on having a rehab of my own. Afterwhich, i shifted to being a social worker instead. The one that specializes on social abnormalities...i still want this though.

But, hey, look what i have become now: An agency slave!

Strange... i'm lovin it.

Sad sunsets

"You know--one loves the sunset, when one is so sad..."

- The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint Exupery

Self check:

I totally love sunsets. If only i could watch it fourty-four times a day like the little prince did once when he was still on his planet. Am i sad?

On other hand, someone has commented that it was romantic... awful comment, i say. I am not a romantic person. I am a keep-it-real type but it is absolutely contradictory as morethan anything else I prefer impressionism. Sunsets are abstract. Am i making it complicated?

Quit smoking?

I am a smoker and I used to smoke 2 packs a day. So that makes it more or less

40 sticks per day
280 sticks per week
1,120 sticks per month
13,440 sticks per year.

I am only 25 now but I can say I have really unhealthy lungs as I have started seriously smoking a very long time ago. Most of my immediate family members are absolute smokers (that practically sums to my mum, my dad, my big brother, and my sister-in-law and that leaves out my 14-year old little brother and my almost 3-year old nephew). It's kinda cool to think that my family is quite open on smoking issues (as well as on other ishs) as we are basically a family of smokers (and drinkers... and late sleepers). We even share our cigarettes or have a family in-house party for no occassion at all.

Just recently (really recent... like a couple of minutes ago) my cousin, J, shared that his dad is battling level 4 non-small cell lung cancer which has already spread to the esophagus and the liver as well. Woah, i'm at work but i really couldn't concentrate now. It broke my heart. :(

My uncle, Tito Plimen, as we call him was an active smoker. He has been butting more than 2 packs per day. Ever since I could remember he is absolutely a manic smoker. Last time when they picked me up in Thailand and i toured them for a few day vacation as well, I watched him finish a lotta smoke all through out the trip. Mind you people, these are blue seal brands which means stronger butts! Totally kicks you in right in the spots. And then a couple of months after, I found out that he got sick and ergo given up smoking at all as he has to.

So now, come to think of it. What did smoking ever did to me?

Cigarette has been my constant and loyal friend. It has been my so-called companion during lonely, boring, rough, fun, nostalgic, euphoric, celebratic, eccentric, tough times of my life. When I was living alone and feeling homesick, it has been my constant friend along with alcohol. I have as well introduced it to my other friends and more so made so much friends because of it. So basically it helped me maintain my sanity.

But lately, cigarette has not been my object of affection. Prior to knowing my uncle's sickness, i was practically trying to keep my puffs to a minimum of just a couple of sticks per day. Surprised? I bet you are. Why? Just because...

I don't really know. Maybe, for one, I am playing badminton again. It has been a regular Saturday morning routine for me and my family lately. No matter how late I go home friday (practically saturday wee hour) I have somehow developed a rhythm to wake up early on Saturdays, get dressed, rush to my brother's house, get them to suit themselves up, eat brunch at Alexa's deli courtesy of our generous tita, play an hour or so at The Zone again courtesy of our generous tita, grab something nice to eat and chat all afternoon.... but my Saturday nights activities vary.

Another reason might be since I am back here at my mum's home I feel puffing smokes here would feel like being in a gas chamber. Mum's house is quite small... hardly have windows and i kinda feel off when i smoke near my kid brother. Don't want him to think that smoking is cool and smoking is quite normal. It's incohesive and it's absolutely wonky, i know, but I don't want him to start the same age as I did... or rather i don't even want him to start at all.

Another reason might be that I hardly have time doing things apart from work. Agency life has been totally demanding I didn't even have much time to finish my writing... moreso, produce well thought-of materials. I know my writing has gone bonkers... I am not performing very well and everything has been consistently half-baked ideas. Thank God, Jeeda and Por has been quite patient to me.

Lastly, since I have been loaded with these stuff that i mentioned, ergo, I hardly have time for myself at all. I rarely partied anymore, haven't gone out with my other friends, haven't had the time to return calls or to sit down for a good cup of coffee, haven't met new ones, haven't... haven't... haven't... lately. Bleh, I am practically whinning here!

Going back to my thoughts now, I am basically considering on quiting BUT NOT ABRUPTLY! I used to think that I would be smoking 'til they take away my lungs but guess I have changed mindset lately. So lets see what happens.

Girl Ish

Girls are generally irrational.. they have an inherent disposition to become pathologically INSECURE! Talk about femme absurdity. This is just one of the kazillion reasons why i prefer to hang with the dudes. Unlike hoes, dudes are absolutely REAL.

Hey, I can't help it if I possess a nice smile. Don't pretend you didn't see me and look past me when I effortlessly smile to you. Don't be fooled! I am merely being pleasant but I am not your Little Miss Pea-Brain. I see through you and I know how to get even at the least you expect.

I know that you absolutely think that I am good so move it, bitch! Getawtofdwei! I am perfectly capable of what I am doing and I know when, where, and how to ask should there be a need. I admit... I am not a know-it-all but I learn fast... so fast you wouldn't even know what hit you!

Be grateful of what you have other than constantly lint-picking my shirt. Get a hobby, get some new friends, go out and get fresh, find something worthwhile to do, or for St. Crusty the Clown's sake... GET A LIFE of your own. I am not the telenovela villainess you so hate. Guess what, I am real! So, watch out.

keekai on caffeine

Oh no! Not until this morning that I have done full acknowledgement of my latest addiction. I have turned into a coffee addict!

So what made me say that? Here goes. I have been noticing that for these past few weeks, I am sooo cranky in the morning. My day ends and begins almost in a routine. I go home, check my mails, work on my writing while catching up with my friends who are online at the same time, half watching whatever my brother is watching on DVD (lately its been desperate housewives series). I sleep late as usual... always after 12. At about 6.30am my mum bangs at my door, wakes me up, and ask me if I'm going to work. Of course, I will. I go down, pump up the music my brother is playing, or change it to the morning rush, and wait for my brother to finish taking a bath. After he showers, I get under it, brush my teeth, put on standard day-to-day makeup, spend a great deal of time coming up with an outfit for the day, slip on something i like, then of course my shoes, throw some stuff on my bag, go down and out, and wait for mum to lock up. Get to work riding a jeep and a taxi. Then i'm in the office before or a bit after 8am. You know what? After checking my mails in the morning, I rush to the pantry and fill my commuter mug with coffee!

I have been literally sooo attached to my commuter mug that I was saddened when my nephew accidentally bumped the table and broke it. So the following monday, I just had to buy a new one. I have been taking it wherever I go... dinner meetings with friends, commuting to and from office, badminton sessions on saturdays, shopping, etc. Of course it has to be filled with coffee or water.

So again, what made me say that i'm addicted to coffee already? Here goes. I slept last night and woke up today doing the same routine. But then I tried to go through the morning with just having water after I ate my breakfast. So its water... water... water. Guess what? I was in such a cranky-wonky mood! I am sooo sleepy my eyes are literally dropping... so come lunch time I give in and slept thinking that when I wake up I would be different. Well, an hour passed I woke up and still I was feeling bonkers. I couldn't take it anymore... I have to have a shot of caffeine. So I went down and snugged me a frapp.

Haaaayyy... now sipping and finishing my cold and soothing frapp, I feel better. It's already past 2pm but i feel like my day is just starting.

Despite of all these, I have been limiting my caffeine shot to one to two tall mugs per day (one in the morning and one after work meetings with friends). Although, it kinda bugs me now cuz I used to loathe drinking coffee. I mean, before this addiction I am not actually a coffee person. I prefer chocolate drinks, shakes and even milk (and of course beer and other poisons). The only coffee I drink are the ones from my grandma's cup (creamy and sweet) then later on just the starbucks frapp I normally order occassionally. Now, it's a staple to me every morning and I'm starting to be alarmed.

TGIF

Yey! It's Friday!

I have never been so happy until now just because its already Friday. It's been really an uber interesting week for me here (sitting at McCann)... really totally absolufrigginlutely interesting! Hey, no sarcasm. I am enjoying what I'm doing now and everyone is quite smart. In fact, they are so smart they make me 'look' smart as well! Talk about mixing to the right working group ;)

Last night was a total blast! We celebrated my favorite upcoming artist, Aleks, burpdei! Well, its not entirely a wild shindig but I had soooo much fun. I'm glad I went cuz at first I felt kinda lazy (hello! it was raining!) and megamall isn't really my type of place. Ang layo, men! But then, hey, what the hell, I owe these people big time (for constantly cancelling and not showing up coffee night schedules) so I went after meeting up for a chit-chat with my Jhan (sis, miss u!).

I took the MRT as that was the smartest thing to do... traffic is soooo pathetic from Makati to Ortigas and I don't want to punish myself sitting in a cab alone. Can you believe... i took the MRT alone! Adventure itoh! Well i did rode the MRT years back alone so I have some experiences not to mention my last ride with Jhan couple of months ago when we went to Metrowalk just to watch Bamboo play at Aruba and of course meet her cousins from the US (which reminds me... i havent emailed back Jhan's cousin, Boogie... or did i?). So anyway, i bought a ticket which is totally unmarked so I dont know which side should go into that thing-amma-jig wherein you insert the tickets to get inside the station. I caused a 2-minute foot traffic! Sooo embarrassing!

So I met up with the girls, Glecie, Wena, Peegee, Georg, and Joel at the foodcourt near the ice skating rink (xmpre nde ku alam kung saan ang foodcourt so i had to ask the guard for the directions). We... ermm... they are supposed to go ice skating but it was kinda late na. We headed to Tempt Asian at megastrip. In fairness, fairview and fairwell (hehe), food there is ok. Their tom yum koong is better than some other restaurants here (though nothing beats the one in Lang Suan Chinese restaurant... hay I miss mak mak!). Of course, walang kamatayang kwentuhan!!! Namiss ku tuloy ang Aesod (even the office pets hehe)!

Now its Friday! Tonight i might meet Chip and Karl but tomorrow is what I am sooooo looking forward to! Badminton with Tita, J, my brothers, Jo, and Wesley poooopooooch, gown-fitting MM's wedding, and we might go to the Redhorse event at night (provided that it will not rain).

On a Wednesday Morning

I
drew
a
sun
on
the
pavement
...

hoping
you
would
stop
from
pouring.

McCann Monday

It's a McCann Monday!

Been quite busy... oh shod it... really busy! good busy not busy-busy... well i'm loving what i'm doing ;)

Fer shizz mah nizz!


oh btw, here's the new color... couldn't post from previous blog.

I just changed the color

My first week at NewMedia has been great! I get to meet a lot of people (PANA, Globe, J&J, Yehey, Digipost, etc.) and learn more on my turf. I totally enjoyed the week though quite tiresome. Being with Ferdi and Tiwa is quite an adventure. They are really remarkable people... young, bold, and they know their stuff really well. I can live with that ;)

I didn't went out Friday night inspite of the many gimik and night-out invitations i got from my friends (I am sooo sorry dudes and dudettes) and also i was kinda broke that day hehehe. I have been really tired so I went to bed really early and woke up for the Saturday i have been looking forward to. This Saturday I pampered myself!

I woke up early, checked my mails to see if i have some writing i needed to finish. Twasn't many so i put it on hold. I went to my brother's house, played and watched Saturday morning cartoons with my nephew while they get ready. After my big bro did car wash, we zoomed to meet up with my cousin J and Tita Carolle in her condo in Makati. We had a very nice breakfast at Alexa's Deli and then off we go the Zone to play badminton.

It's a friggin oven at the Zone cuz we got there at nearly noon but i didn't mind. The facilities are quite nice (comparing to the court we normally play near our house) but playing there would be very expensive. Buti na lang sagot ni Tita! hehehe Twas really a good one-hour game... my big bro kicked ass! Since he was a better volleyball player than I was... his badminton skills are a bit intimidating as he can hit the shuttlecock air-suspended! I'm gonna get him next time for sure!

After that, we had a lunch fest at a park in Salcedo Village. It kinda reminded me of Thailand where people go out to lunch on tents and shop as well. Sarap!

We went back to Tita's condo and my nephew couldn't resist dipping on the pool while us gurlies chat about some stuff. I opened up my biz proposition to my Tita and voila! she find it pretty lame and she will give us support! Yippeeeeee me and Joan will be an entrepreneur soon!!! Watch out for our keekai stuff in the market before Christmas. Hayyyyy sobrang exciting!!!

Anyway, afterwhich, I asked my bro to drop me off the salon. I deserve some pampering! I asked my mum and Joan to join me as well. Mum and I got foot spa (ayan mukha nang paa nde na luya hahaha). Jo got a hair relax... nde na xa kulot! While I got changed my hair color from black to dark ash blonde. See here:


Twas such a good hair job. I wanted to perm my hair but i guess it's still short and it would look funny if i do that. So i'll just wait till it grow longer.

We went to do some groceries and then on our way home it rained so hard! Damn, I hated it. Rain has been quite irksome lately... pretty much ruining my night-out plans. So instead of going out, I went to bed early.

But on second thought, I was kinda tired.

Just a thought...

surprise me..
amuse me..
hold me..
watch sunsets with me..
for all eternity.

How I spent my Friday and Saturday Nights

This is better than getting drunk.

This was my Friday night...






And my Saturday night... Photos!

This is my Sunday morning... lounging... hay, sarap!


Now, back to my presentation na. Ciao, peepz!

Keekai news

I know... i know... i know... i have been outta circulation lately and most of the time simply just ignore most of you. Irksome, Keekai, totally irksome!

I AM WEEEEELLLLEEEE WWWEEEELLLEEE SSSSOOOOWWWWWEEEEEEE :(

I have been very busy for the past few weeks as most of you know. August is such an eventful month for me. Things are happening to me and I am very thankful. :)

Two major things on Monday:

We are launching ThailandHotDeal.com !!! Hurraaaayyyy!!!
Too bad my trip to Thailand has been postponed (hopefully on next next week i will be there again) and i will not be there for the party :( Sayang talga xe sa BedSupperClub pa naman yung venue. First time I was there ata was with JoJo (my Thai colleague), A, and Cedric (who was then visiting for a couple of days). The bartender, whom we know, mixed us with uber delicious cocktails! Twas sooo friggin delicious we didn't know what hit us! When we left BedSupperclub to hop to Slim Bar, we were sooo damn tipsy. We were dancing like the devil would care (as always) and just drank a couple of Bacardi's. Potah, those were such nasty drinks.

Anyway going back to ThailandHotDeal.com, I felt really light-headed when I say my writings. Hay, all the hardwork... for public viewing and of course public booking!

Next, it will be my first day of work with NewMedia as well. This is my career-day job and I have been wanting this job for a very long time na! This would entail me to learn more on digital marketing and advertising. It really looks promising :)

I am really glad the AESOD family took it really well. They are such good sport and very supportive on people. If it weren't with this opportunity I would've stayed there longer. I have learned a lot from them even in a short period of time (erm, 2 months) and I have had a blasted time everyday! But i guess growth is also a factor to be considered and not just having fun everyday.

Last Friday, I met up with Ferdi, who is now my boss and he briefed me with the mumb-jumbos of the biz. It was honestly overwhelming as these team are pretty good at what they are doing and I need to measure up with them in no time. Well, kaya ko 'to! I think, therefore, I can. Hehehe

We have a big event this coming Thursday. That's why I met up with him last Friday as we need to keep the wheels going and prepare very well. And the other big players will be in the country on Tuesday. Here the sample emaier of the event (sorry, McCann they forgot to put ur logo):

Happy beerday, Kuuuuyyyaaaa!!!!

It never fails.. really. Rain always pour every year as we celebrate your birthday!
Nonetheless, the 2-day party must go on! Here are some of the pics.

i am really tired

i have been spending too much time in front of the computer for these past few weeks since i started doing my writing job. nothing too flashy though and i honestly enjoy doing the project. but lately i find not much time for myself. i am supposed to be resigned now with my biz devt work but still i am here writing my silent whims.... *sign* i have never felt so tired all my life. i wanna concentrate on my writing instead! i want out!

i miss my bed. its comfort, its warmth.
now all my clothes, bags, belts, books, and what-have-yous are literally cluttered on top of it and there's hardly any space to lie down.

i miss my room. the sun i painted years ago to keep me happy always as there are no windows on it. my night light that i normally leave on when i feel so alone at night.
now it looks more like a storage place for my stuffs and everything, i mean everything, is in complete chaos!

i miss my private thoughts. i haven't thought of anything sensible to ponder on. all my creative juices goes to my work and none to color my already complicated thoughts.

i miss being by myself. i miss idle times. most of all, i miss sleeping.

A Rainy Swimming Day @ Antipolo

It has been indeed such a long time! I couldn't even remember when was the last time before this that we have had our reunion/swimming party at Antipolo... probably ages ago!

This is actually a very verrrrryyy long overdued summer family reunion which should be done every year (but haayyy for the past 2 summers i wasn't in the country, diba?). For this year everyone was so busy that's why it has been eternally posponed until today.

Today... swimming today... but it rained friggin hard! blehhhh! kainis! i was planning to get a lot of sun pa naman and to even get darker. I love the sun and i love getting dark. kaso nga lang umulan... or probably kaya umulan cuz we have been singing!! hehehe uber fun kasi imagine 2 magic mics and a thousand songs to choose from, thanks to my tita... well even more thanks for their very warm accommodation sa Antipolo house nila. As always, we had a blasted time! More photos here.

Butterfly Effect 2

Can you change your past without destroying your future?

This is what i've been watching out and its coming out really soon.. no, not on DVD but on the big screen.

Miami Vice suck! Story doesn't have a twist... very predictable. Shots are not so artistic with exemption to Gong Li's and Colin Farel's love scene. Not much skin, more of head shots, but it looked very sexy indeed. Colin Farel is still deliciously hot! :P

Boo, you looked really cute and yummy still >:) Thanks a big bunch. i really needed the break.

Nuff said... i need to finish my writing so i can go with family swimming tomorrow!

Stop

I've been thinking of your smile and it scares me.

No, we can't and i'm not going through that any more. I should be done with this... in fact, i shouldn't have started it anyway. Not it's too late but not that late so let's stop.

Please stop?
Stop smiling at me.. stop staring at me in that way as it melts me inside out.
Stop dropping me sweet nothing hints.. it's totally working!
Stop making me feel your presence... my senses awakens whenever you ar near.
Stop showing me that you're concerned... you know damn well i can take good care of myself but it will be all the more exciting doing things with you.
Stop reaching out to me even the most subtle way... knowing that you are just within my reach makes my stomachs churn and crave for you even more.

Can you please just stop?

*Gasp* Why do you have to be married?

Becky Bakawan

My colleague, Aleks, one of the greatest young artist i have ever met, asked me to have the honour to work with him on a really, really fun project: Becky Bakawan (Becky the Mangrove)

Totally something i will totally enjoy doing. :)

Here's a sneak peak of his work:

Skinny, pathetic, old pics.. never fail to make me laugh

These are so funny... i was laughing my ass out literally!

My cousin compiled some old stock pics of our family circa 80's and 90's. Grabe, we were all skinny and we looked pathetic back then on those pics.. friggin hilarious!

Mama Noodles

Thank you, Acer, for my mama noodles!
I've been craving for these in ages!!

Narcissus

The alchemist knew the legend of Narcissus, a youth who knelt daily beside a lake to contemplate his own beauty. He is so fascinated by himself that, one morning, he fell into the lake and drowned. At the spot where he fell, a flower was born, which was called the narcissus.

But htis was not how the author fo the book ended the story.

He said that when Narcissus died, the goddesses of the forest appeared and found the lake, which had been fresh water, transformed into a lake of a salty tears.

"Why do you weep?" the goddess asked.

"I weep for Narcissus," the lake replied.

"Ah, it is no surpirse that you weep for Narcissus," they said, "for though we always pursued him in the forest, you alone could contemplate his beauty close at hand."

"But... was Narcissus beautiful?" the lake asked.

"Who better than you know that?" the goddesses said in wonder. "After all, it was by you banks that he knelt each day to contemplate himself!"

The lake was silent for some time. Finally, it said:

"I weep for Narcissus, but i never noticed that Narcissus was beautiful. I weep because, each time he knelt beside my banks, I could see, in the depths of his eyes, my own beauty reflected."

Did i left something?

Why do i get this feeling that it's as if i left something somewhere?

Ever felt like this before... you are not sure if you left something... something that you know has value to you (maybe not now but it will have in the future)... all of a sudden u accidentally forgot it somewhere... u didn't mean it but u lost it. u feel bad because u lost something, though u don't even know what that something is! you feel bad because u lost something, u don't even have any idea what's that something's worth.

i feel that way... or is it just the hormones kicking?

The quiet monk & Bangkok at Dusk

How cool can these be?

Uber talented Ahleks took this shot and some more during his short vacation in Thailand.

Damn, makes me miss thailand mak mak.

When the rains pour

Sometimes i hate it when it rains. Everything is so damp and grey. The people are so cold literally and figuratively. No time to chat, no time to chill, no time to hang... everyone just wants to get home safe otherwise they will have helluva time getting home.

Here at home the walls are damp and the ambiance is quite sleepy. No one wants to go out exept for several occassions that we had to go out. Everything is sooo slow. The energy level is so low. Even the sun i painted in my wall at my room couldn't do anything to bring warmth or least dry up the drippings that came from a roof leak on my bedroom floor.

I miss people's warmth. I miss human contact. Not that i don't get any from the people that matters to me most but they can't always be there for me. That's a selfish thought, Keekai. You can't always bum your family to be with you always day in day out. No matter how hard you try and no matter how high you bribe them. They, too, have a life of their own just like everyone else... just like you.

Me? Why did i end up like this? i have always been a solitary person... well, erm, not really but i always wanted to be. I hate it when people meddle with my affairs. I hate it when they worry much of me. I used to think that i can handle everything by myself... well, i still do but not this. I hate this feeling of being powerless over certain situations... not really certain but in every situation. I am not used to giving the wheels to another driver... i had to be the driver of my life.

What the hell am i talking about? Damn, i need booze :)

Keekai lost her digits

I LOST MY BELOVED MOTOROLA PHONE!

No joke, i lost my phone. We went to ICE at GB and someone must've gotten it off my bag.. or maybe it just fell. Well , whatever. Basta I lost it and am soooo jinxed! People can sometimes be heartless :( or maybe that person who took it must've needed the phone so badly morethan i do. I just hope that somehow i helped him or her or it. :P

Hakuna matata... lessons learned: keekai, that wasn't Zantika.. that wasn't Slim.. that wasn't Route... that shithole doesn't even come close to where everyone just don't care if you leave your phone even on the loo. Welcome back to the Philippines, Keekai!

So, people people people +63.906.492.3102 is no longer my digit. Will tell you the new one soon.

Keekai, out!

Lemme have this shirt...

I am uberly missing Thailand lately... probably because i have been writing about it again. Just got lucky, i guess, as i am doing something absofrigginlutely worthwhile!

Awww, i wish i would be in Bangkok on the launching of my new project THD phase 2... Imagine, all the booze i can have at Club Astra! Nevermind the sucky trance music only the likes of Acer enjoys... it's the booze i am after at. Just like last time when we launched THD phase 1 at my favorite favorite favorite pub Zantika, i just got back from my long bum-stay here at home and i was only a week old in Thailand and i could still hear my friends cheers to this: "Para sa tahimik na pamumuhay!" (translation: Oh my gosh, Chinkey is back! Goodbye morethan 8 hour sleep... hello daily hangover!). But oh well. Mai mee panha... Mai kid mark... kuu sabai sabai!

Now, remembering Club Astra, i have been there only once. Why? For one, i am not really into house and trance music . My system can only tolerate so much of those! Secondly, it's friggin expensive there. i only went there because my thai friends faked the entrance stamp and passed it on to me using our salivas to wet the mark (hahaha) but eventually didn't work so we had to borrow a red pen from the guard and write AS TRA on my wrist instead and pretended we are already drunk and just went out to check something in the car or whatever. So the only time i went there was the Paul Frank organized party. The guest aussie-DJ sucked so we just sniffed some coke in the loo and had as much drink as we can ' til the party was over then went to Tak's Pub ( Thonglor Samutsorn) and smoked some dope :D Those were the days with Nongnoo (name translation: little rat). Mighty high and paranoid! Whatever happened to her anyway?

Procastinating

I know... i know... i have to work on my concept writing now. Just gimme a sec okay? I'm still waiting for the divine writing god to bestow me some new brains so that i can start on this project. So for now, let me blab.

Blab... well i have nothing to talk about. Nothing that exciting actually. Well not that i haven't been going out or something. I have actually been out a lot... losing my brains! What a shiznits!

The screws must've been stuck... again! Common, brain... don't fail me now.

Nuff said.

Just feel like singing this

D Asus4 G Asus4
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B-------3---------3----------2----------3--]
G----2-------------------------------------]
D--0----------2--------------------2-------]
A-----------0------------2-------0---------]
E----------------------3-------------------]


D As4 G As4
I would have given you all of my heart
D As4 G As4
but there's someone who's torn it apart
D As4 G As4
and he's taking almost all I have
D As4 G As4
but if you want, I'll try to love again baby
D As4 G As4
I'll try to love again but I know


D As4 G As4
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
D As4 G As4
The first cut is the deepest
D As4 G As4
'cause when it comes to being lucky he's cursed
D As4 G As4 A5
when it comes to lovin' me he's worst

D As4 G As4
I still want you by my side
D As4 G As4
just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
D As4 G As4
cause I'm sure gonna give you a try
D As4 G As4
and if you want, I'll try to love again but baby,
D As4 G As4
I'll try to love again, but I know


D As4 G As4
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
D As4 G As4
The first cut is the deepest
D As4 G As4
'cause when it comes to being lucky he's cursed
D As4 G As4 A5
when it comes to lovin' me he's worst


Solo bit comes in- the chords are just the same as the chorus
There is something else going on with an electric guitar but someone else can
work that out.( I dont do solos)

solo thing: D As4 G As4 x2


D As4 G As4
I still want you by my side
D As4 G As4
just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
D As4 G As4
cause I'm sure gonna give you a try
D As4 G As4
and if you want, I'll try to love again but baby,
D As4 G As4 A5
I'll try to love again, but I know


D As4 G As4
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
D As4 G As4
The first cut is the deepest
D As4 G As4
'cause when it comes to being lucky he's cursed
D As4 G As4
when it comes to lovin' me he's worst
D As4 G As4
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
D As4 G As4 D
The first cut is the deepest Try to love again

Fer ya and no one else

You say you want
Diamonds on a ring of gold
You say you want
Your story to remain untold

But all the promises we make
From the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you

You say youll give me
A highway with no one on it
Treasure just to look upon it
All the riches in the night

You say youll give me
Eyes in a moon of blindness
A river in a time of dryness
A harbour in the tempest
But all the promises we make
From the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you

You say you want
Your love to work out right
To last with me through the night

You say you want
Diamonds on a ring of gold
Your story to remain untold
Your love not to grow cold

All the promises we break
From the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you

i like you, stupid!

How come everytime i bring my life to the ruts you always find me?

What is it with you?

I like you, stupid!

Since the time i could remember, i have always wanted you.

Am i too late? Tell me, am i too late now?

Btw, is this for me?

Mac & Me

It's mac and me for the Biz Dev Team... well, at least for now 'til my new partner comes around. Awww... it's such a shame hottie momma Glecie will be leaving us -- isn't because of me and my diabolical plans for the future? Fer shizzle! Of course, NOT, mofitos! Her reason is something more meaningful than that. Well anyway, been enjoying so far and to think that my freelance writing is hopefully on a kick-start really soon still keeping my bums crossed (is that possible?).

Friday Night at Boobs este Booze Stop

One friday night chilling with Accenture peepz... actually my cousin's colleague and his girlfriend as well. Fer shizzle! Finally me and the infamous Bajao met... and clicked just like that *tok*! Peace out, man, we are still on truce so as much as you so enjoyed, your not gonna get any beatings here. Really a small world for us. Imagine we have common friends. Yeeesh, MM & Ohnie (who btw will finally tie the knot...elk! this 21st of October. Kudos!)... I am referring to you guys!

Aesod Chicks

Do i still need to describe them?? Just look at their sweet innocent smiles.... bwahahaha fresh meat... fresh meat...

Asan si Chekwa?

Where the fark is Marvin? Ampf!

In lieu of Adam's upcoming trip to the Aussie Land (where the chicks are blehhh hehehe peace), we plan on meeting every weekend just to hang and catch up at BJ's crib.

Men, its been... ermm... more or less 3 years to date. These guys started off as my freaky stalkers. Geez, they said they've been seeing me walk at the South Building during their Hydraulics classes. Well, at that time... it ain't such a biggie as they are all just a bunch of boys to me even if they are the same as my age. Time after that and before they left Mapua, Adam asked for my digit and since then we've been hangin'. They are afterall from the South like I am. These (then just boys) now Engineers has gone chillin' with their Chingkay to practically anywhere even on their shared apartment in Paco during their board review/mamam sessions, to Tagaytay (urgh.. those chicks are really off), to Capone's, and so on. We have been with eachother through a lot of heartaches and dissasters.

Damn, i missed them a lot when i was away! So to catch up... dudes, papaabot nnman pa ba tau hangang...

Get this

What did i realize today?

Flava suckers are extremely annoying!
Read, asswipe, read: EXTREMELY ANNOYING

Get real.

Kill me... my feet hurt like hell!

If Peegee adores Joey, I like Carlos better. Why? Well, nevermind his peculiar sense of humor (as they say ha.. not coming from me) but he is uber nice. I'm very comfortable talking to him and he always creates an impression to everyone that he cares. Awww, whattapapabear!

Anyway, Petron people are very interesting especially this one dude (whom i forgot the name) I had lunch with. He came from Saudi Arabia but he studied in Boston for his undergrad. His English is impeccable but his tagalog is sooo funny. Driving to my point... GWAPO xa sobra!

Gawd, this is so pathetic. I know am not making sense... i'm just happy with what am doing right now.

Ay nga pala, hey man, my threats aren't that empty. See me always or lose me. You know what i mean.

Measly, yeah, but hey i like it!

Bum no mo'! Erm, not entirely. The salary is so measly but i think am gonna like it there anyway. Haaay, finally, i got an offer that i think i would truly enjoy. Honestly I have had offers which are actually neat but somehow i get the feeling that I wouldn't enjoy dong those stuff or that somehow I get the feeling that the job is pointless. That's why it took me a long while to decide. Just so lucky that my family understands my point.

I always wanted to be part of the training team. This time i can do both (that and marketing) plus the greatest part is that i can still wear my bum clothes (erm, actually excluding my fave skimpy skirts and torn jeans) to work when there's no training. I was introduced to the team and I get the feeling that they are really nice... i hope. More kwela-kwentos soon.

Meanwhile, I just finished some freelance copywriting thingy for my old company's ecommerce project AsiaParagon.com. Welcome note reads something like this:

Art is an outcome of a person's expression of his perceived being and existence.

Through Asian Art, the mystical way of life, long-lived traditions and enigmatic

nature of Asians are being mirrored timelessly.

With high veneration to quality Asian Art and in great support to Asian Artists,

AsiaParagon welcomes you to a freeway venue of quality Asian Art.......

Nuff said...don't wanna spoil the surprise 'til it's launched. Anyway, thanks, man, for this but you know darn well i prefer sunflowers. See u sooner. Missumoy!

Happy burpday, Petitoy!

Yeyy, little bro just turned 14 today.

Happy Burpday, Djaywafungets!!!

Daddy & Nining

Daddy's gurl, yeah i am. Can u blame me?

Happy Father's Day to all the dads out there!

Bleak as the moon

Just as this solitary moon
i stole from my dad's garden
i am bleak.
Mystical, mythical
and yet still bleak.

Somewhere only we know

I walked across an empty land,
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand.
I felt the earth beneath my feet,
Sat by the river and it made me complete.
Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

I came across a fallen tree,
I felt the branches of it looking at me.
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

So if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know.

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So, tell me when you gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.
So if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, so why don't we go,

Hmmm yea,

This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know.

I really need sleep

I really need to catch some ZzZZzzzzZZZzzzzz....

Since Tuesday night when i've gone out with Jhan, Meann and Edric my circadian rhythm has gone bonkers! Morning to me has been reduced to simply there's still sunlight outside and if there's none then it's night time already. As my friend, fritz, puts it... ano ka ba, manok? you have a peculiar concept of time like chickens?

What a weekend! At first i thought this will going to be such a drag as our previous plan to go on a family weekend escapade has been cancelled. As it turned out, i was able to catch up with mah Mapua engineers.

Saturday. One-on-one gramma glug-glug session with my sis-in-law, joan. When we were about to finish the shots, look who turned-out at my dad's garage? My Mapuan EEs Adam and BJ. So we grab ourselves a couple of biiiiig happy horses (note, red horse has 2 kinds logos: nakasimangot at nakangiti... gawd, i've been drinking that poison for nearly a decade and i didn't knew that!) and a cook-out! Fresh from Davao tuna belly and puro tokwa't baboy! Yummy! Dudes, am right, ain't i? We should keep on doing this until... ermmm... aussie boy flies! Marvin and Jason... what the hell happend to u both?! I never thought that the moon moves.... may tama ako! Tingnan nio o... light na! But what the heck, good morning and drive safe, south people!


Sunday. My charlie came back from the catacombs of the past.... hay, too many words, too many things to be done. enuf said. twas a sleepless sunday anyway!

Monday. Still bangenge from last nights' poisons...went the whole day out with family including my grandfolks. Hmmm... nothing much really happened but it was really tiresome and we pretty much ate a lot! Shanghai Bistro is really nice (the one in Libis ha not the one in Makati, mind you) but my tita introduced me to this small really cozy Asian cafe 2/F of Rustan's. The joint is called EAST and i so love their salmon sashimi and chocolate cake. SARAP!!!

Hey, i may sound perky but i reaaaaallly reallly need to hit the sack now.

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Meet me in outer space. We could spend the night; watch the earth come up. I've grown tired of that place; won't you come with me? WE could start again. How do you do it? Make me feel like I do. How do you do it? It's better than I ever knew. Meet me in outer space. I will hold you close, if you're afraid of heights. I need you to see this place, it might be the only way that I can show you how it feels to be inside of you. How do you do it? Make me feel like I do. How do you do it? It's better than I ever knew. You are stellar.